My Take on this...

As the 49th years of independence draws near.... newspapers will start interviewing people with regards to what they think of the country so far, what they would like to see us as citizens do more, bla bla bla.

Hmmm... so, I believe many of you out there has read so many blogs, articles in the newspapers, esp from thos who has ventured far for better education then decided to stay on to where they thot are green pastures, or some who moved away wanting a better life else where. You might also have read those ingrate who were born here and now berate the country and diminishing it to a minute ant.

I fall to the first category but minus the last bit. When I first came back to this country, I did have all the sentiments these people had. I loved the new country which i have spent 3 yrs in. I wished i could stayed on. Everyday since the day i came back and for the longest time as I can recall, I longed to be back there. But 10 years has since passed.... Do I still feel that way? Yes, once a while I get melancholy and i do think about it.

But I also realized that in the past 1 year, I have to terms with myself, and you know what happens now when I read about what people say about this place? Well granted this place is not eutophia... I don't think anywhere will be euthophia. But then I strongly believe that people who longer call this place home has no rights to berate it. You don't go thru what we go thru every day of our lives. You choose to leave ( except those who had to leave due to circumstances - you are forgiven :P) Anyways.... I believe that this country still has things that are good eventho' somethings irks you like mad. But home is where at anytime of the day, you can meet up with your friends, call your parents, drop by their home. Whats life without all that eventho' you have the most beautiful sky line at your backyard? Or the best quality of air? But when you want to go visit your friends, you can't just drop by but instead you have to call them, or drop hints so that they may eventually get the hint and invite you to their house hahaha. I sound like a cynic don't I. Well I am just giving the extreme examples.

But you get my gist.

So maybe its time, we think how to make the best of this situation that God has put us in and stop whining about how bad things are...(yeah I am big whinner myself, but self control has gotten the best of me lately. Hard but I do my best not to fall into but somtimes it fails but sometimes its successful)

I have a coworker who constantly talks about how bad things are, how she doesn't earn enough money... how she would have been much better off in SG,AU or where ever not. She hasn't been overseas before. She did all the tertiary education here. Thats fine. No one is looking down on your bcoz of that. But stop already!!!! Look around you!!!
One day I showed to her there is this man who guides the traffic infront of the hotel near our office. You can see he stands in the hot sun at 12 noon from goodness knows what time till what time. But in the blazing hotsun (dressed in black), he stands there and waits when car comes by he will guide them. Thats his job every day in and out. How much do you think he gets paid? probably a measly 600-800 a month? or less??

So I told her straight on her face!! be Glad you're not him and think about how fortunate you are and not about how you can't afford that DIOR or GUCCI bag. When this person probably have to think 3 times what he can have for lunch/dinner so he can provide for his family and survive till the next pay check.

I SAY INGRATE!!!! START THINKING AND START LOOKING AROUND YOU. YOu are much more fortunate than most out there... eventho you might complain life is better elsewhere. But since you're here make the best out of it , can you not?! Just do that? Its hard, yeah i have been there. But eventually when you come to terms with yourself, you will find that certain sort of peace within you.

Dont' mean to lecture no one.. but thats my 50 cents worth of thoughts...
:P

Things

I know I haven't been writing anything worth readin lately. Actually, I don't know whats wrong with me really. Sometimes when I am driving or walking around it seems like I have alot to write about but once I reached home, I don't feel like writing at all. Or I forget what i had actually wanted to write about. The forgetfullness is probably due to old age.

Couple of things happened. I managed to move to a new seat which is now more secluded and my monitor isn't facing the highway anymore. Which is good rite? Alittle bit further frm my si tow por also. But now I am seating with a person whom I don't even know i can trust. So everyday I have to keep all stuff in my drawer n leave nothing behind. Before I moved to this new place, I actually bless some holy water. and I have a small benedict cross seating on my table. Quite hidden view actually.

Lately I have been feeling kind down again. About what? I can't really put my finger on it.
Due to this depression, I really feel like buying stuff. Like even stuff i don't need but I feel an urge to buy it.

This month I will also be paying off the last 2 payment of my tooth implant. therefore I am gonna be broke for awhile and this month I would have to dig hard into my savings. :P

I wish this blues will stop singing. But it has been a week and it hasn't stopped.

I am going to a foreign land for assignment next month. I am not liking it either. I have to do alot of preparation before than. Its less than 1 month. I am tired. I hate IT!!!!!!! I hate hate hate double hate it!!!!!!!!!

I also hate having arseholes in my team. One who only want to boss people around but know next to jack shit!

Gosh... i am not in the best of moods right now!!!!!

Also I havebeen going to gym 2 weeks in a row now. Yeah FOC gym at the company hahahaa. Not really FOC lah. I am a member of the recreational club mah. So free loh. I pay member fee once a year. Farni thing is, I am more tired than ever. I thot exercise suppose to rejuvenate you rite? Tak tau ler.. apa yg tak kena ini.

AII please keep me in your prayers that things will be brighten up.

I thot I siow, but some people even more siow

Read this link!!!
19 pair of shoes in a one month.... totally siow, more siow than me. MUAHAHAHHAHAA

http://mystiqangel.blogspot.com/2006/07/of-ringgit-and-sense.html

muahahahahaa

You are a Lavender Rose

You represent love at first sight and enchantment. Your vibe: intense and intriguing Falling in love with you is: deep and meaningful

What Color Rose Are You?

Haircut

I am not that sort of person who will spend alot of hair cut or on anything thats beauty related.
Since I came back from the States and started working here, I haven't spent more than 15 ringgit on a hair cut!!! YEah usually its just RM13 for my regular cut. Granted that the hair dresser works from home. Home is the office.

But with RM13, one cannot expect perfection. I mean that lady isn't young and hip.. she deals mostly with Aunties lah.. hehehe

Of late I have been ranting to my mom, aiyoh.. so old fashion lah but then its just RM13 rite?? So cannot complain ler.. hahahahhaa.

So.. today I decided to go to this shop! I have been there bfore once!!! that was couple of years ago. Went in, said in hokkien,,, wash and cut. THen the person who washed my hair spoke to me in mandarin.. Sorry lah hor. I can't understand mandarin... maybe just the swear words I know. hahaha. Anyways.. then the lady came over... asked me .. cut? i said yes, showed her the picture.. said I want long layer at the back and side. Then she lifts up my hair.. said in hokkien, your hair very little. I cut shorter at the top ok? I said yeah ok.

She cut cut then wash again, blow dry..... Then finished I looked. Ok lah not bad but not very short leh.. only abut 1.5 in off... THen she said 40 ringgit!!!! WA LAU EH. Already naik harga. The last time i went there it was around 30 ringgit.

But the cut is nice, modern and professional loh.

So do you think i should continue to pay RM13 for a haircut or should i just invest around RM40 for a more professional cut???
Thougts?

Daunting Dinner Experience

After facial yesterday, I kinda hungry. I was around 6.45pm and I decided to go to this restaurant in Lucky Garden, Bangsar. Its mamak restaurant lah.

Ok I ordered my paper tosai and sat there with my teh o ais limau. Then I saw the cook finished making the paper tosai... and the waiter that took my order was walk about.... and i saw the waiter actually used his right hand and rub his facial hair... I thot he would wash his hands but he didn't. instead he just took the paper tosai and placed it on the plate with the very same right hand.
SHITTTT

When the food was served, I was comtemplating whether to eat or just leave it. If I were to complain, its my words against his words rite? So i said , n evermind just makan. And never will i go back there again. Mind you i have eaten there many times before. I gues yeterday would be my last.

Eventho' I keep telling myself its ok, forget it but the thot keep lingering my mind up to now...
Wanna vomit ler..... Dunno whether I will fall sick.

Small Gathering

On Tuesday while lunching at Bangsar after visiting our coming community project venue, I saw a familiar face. Someone I had thot left for UK and never coming back. Well she is not coming back for good but just for vacation.

She still look the same since secondary school days.

Then yesterday with another old schoolmate... had dim sum at nite. Yeah dim sum at nite. Aren't malaysian amazing... Any type of food anytime of the day hahahahahaa....

Anyways, 3 of use met up and it was good to talk about old times, and who else we have met or seen over the years.... some married with kids, others like us still single. But mnd you the single crowd is gettng lesser. .hahahaa.

anyways.... the other gal, I met back with her few years ago via choice. For about 1 year i haven't seen her coz she is bz with her new job and also bz pak thor....

She sms'ed me today and said " u've changed, you're more cheerful Good on you!!"
Hmmm.. i didn't notice that. Coz in my mind i am still the downer.. u know????

anyways... With God's Grace I hope I am able to get thru the trying times currently happening in my life and my family....

Ti Ti Tu Tu

Actually I dunno what to name the title.. hehehee.

Recently I asked a friend, do you think I am happier now? Then this friend responded by saying... well... I complain less. Hmm.. does complaining less an indication that I am happier :P It could mean that I am just keeping things to myself now. As I know complaining is futile hahahaha.
But once in awhile, have to let out the stim rito? If not, will go crazy....

So am I really happier? Occasionally, more often than not, I still have sleepless nite. Insomia. I wake up , almost evey hour. I have been trying to figure out whats actually worrying me that I can't seem to be able to let go and surrender.

Work wise, still sucks.. when u have a biatch for a boss. the more you do, the more she complains, people who does nothing, she doesn't hassle them, she basically leave them alone. Sometimes it makes me think that she dosn't deserve to be a super. Then again, is anyone deserving enough to be one? Sometimes it comes with seniority.. sometimes it comes with who you rub shoulders with, so you suck up so much over the years.. that when they move, you're stuck to sole of their shoes and they have no choice but lift you up when they walk forward :P hahahhaa. Get my drift ding ding dong dong...


Anyways, I have told myself no matter what she talks behind myback, I know deep down inside I am a person of integrity and of principle. I do whats right. I do not believe in getting "gaji buta". So whatever is given to me, I try to take positively and do my best. If she wants to bitch bitch loh.... I believe she is one element in my inability to sleep well. And worse of all, she is also a christian. So when i tell my mom about this, she always says, its not about the religion but the person..... Aiii..

Biatch..... i have live with it for now.. and pray that if I am nice enough, when I request for a change of role, I will get it.... *pray pray pray hard*


Anyways, recently I have been pretty stressed up.. the invasion of bugs is killing me. ok i looked carefully and its not white ants......coz its not lutsinar....Everyday , the first thing i dowhen i get home from work is vacuum the bloodeee wall and floor and the furniture.. YET when i wake up in the morn,, its there.. Sometimes within hours some new babies are back on the WALL.. WHAT THE F? is that all they do... reproduction within seconds??? CISSSSSSSSS

DETTOL....... please vanguish them!!!!!!

Beh Tahan

Recently there are some issues that I had wanted to blog about but after much thinking or sometimes at the end of the day, I am just too tired to even bother.

1) The issue about In'national sch.
- Firstly instead of trying to to cover up that the govt sch sucks or has diminished in standards, they just open up int sch as an option for the rakyat. But really tho' there are some rich people who can afford it but there are still many who are not rich. Just getting by. It really disappoints me. Instead of trying to pass the bug, they should look at the issue more seriously.

2) For years the issue of seats in the local university has been looming over our heads.
Hmm.. instead of taking in more local ppl, they have now open the doors for foreign applications. Does it make sense? Many who can't even get into the local university. I really cannot comprehend it man.

3) Kids/Teens/Fresh Grads/Etc who has never been overseas but speak with a distinct accent. Some hasn't even step foot abroad. Yeah those with fako americano accent and english accent. You know I have been meaning to write about this but I forgot until yesterday where there was an article just about this in the local papers. It started of by saying, he saw this two young doe speaking to each other one with distinct english accent and the other with american accent. Wanna bes dudes. Anyways.. it start by saying Doe1 says. I had a bit of sucky. Having a sucky once in a while is good. The write said he was shocked coz at this young age they are already exposed to XXX stuff. Turned out at the end those kiddos meant to say SAKE!!!!!!! hahahahhaa. Ok heres the one i heard for myself. We have this intern who speaks with american accent. And mind you very LC also. When she said she is an intern at our company, and she just started, I asked, so where are you studying. I expected something like.. Uni of balbalba in the US. But the answer that I got was.... UITM . HUH? Sot gah.. i bet she hasn't even set foot over the sea.... Gosh come on lah.. Just speak good english would do... esp when you haven't been overseas.... Beh tahan!

Anyways... i don't look down on those ppl who never had the chance to go abroad to study or whatever. But I just hate ppl who put on the accent... EWWW.. yeah I agree I do get into my american accent when I get excited. But that has toned down alot already. Used to be much worse when I first got back. But then again, I spent 3 years there, their lingo , their culture does gets rubbed on to me.....

Wanna bees just kills me.

Still in the shopping daze

As u all know, I went to SG for sales. When i got back MY was also having sales. Beh tahan had to spend....

Then suddenly i felt like going to HK but couldn't find anyone to go with me
then found a friend who was interested but her schedule and mine just couldn't jive. So end up cannot go loh!!!!!!!!

I will find time and post the things i bought... some already pakai .....

aiiii... today i had a scary experience
I was at bangsar.. parked my car near the housing area. Went to return my rental books and then had dinner.. it was around 7+ and then when i was walkking infront of giant.. a guy start talkkingt me.. in mandarin. Hey I don't un/stand mandarin lah. he just kept yapping yappin, the only thing i got out of it is something like do you shop here.. and something about we are ahere. .blablablablaa... like some hours. Who cares
But the scary part he kept walking with me eventho' i never answered him nor even looked at him. Then i said i am not interested. he kept asking malay? bahasa? i unlocked my car and went it yet he knocked on my window... SHIT!!!!!!! Can't take no for an answer. WTH

ANyways.. i go to that area for facial too.. now I am scared dunno if he recognize my car!!!!! SCARED leh....

Updates

Its been a couple of weeks now since my last post in May.
Somethings has happened along the way.

1) I got sicker after I wrote the post. Had to resort to seeing a specialist - On my own expense. Its a long story but I shall not bore you with details. Lets just say that the company gives you benefits but half heartedly. They impose so much red tape till the end of the day, you will just decide that its easier to just not tab on the benefits.

2) Start 21st week I will be rota again. Its been a year+ since I was ever on call. And being on call for a product that I don't even know, its gonna be like scary. So please people , pray for me.

3) I went to Taman Negara whilst I was still sick in the beginning of May and then to Singapore just last weekend. Had a heaven time shopping in SG. couldn't get enough of buying shoes. hahaha. Wished I could buy more things. I went on the nite train.... but the custom lady very scary... dig dig dig.. wor... thank God only managed to dig 2 pair of shoes out. I should have gone to the male custom officer. My friend just unzip her bag.. and that guy didn't even touch nothing. Just ask her to zip back and go. Damnation.

4) I lost another 1 kg due to insufficient of sleep and the bloody bad sinus infection. This is the second time in 3 years, I am struck by this infection. Let me tell you, its no fun. Its the most horrible time you can ever have. Each time you lie down you will cough like mad.. till your chest burns and hurts. Your nose gets to clogged up, that you have breathe with your mouth but your mouth gets to dry that it aggrivates the cough. Sigh!!!!!!

5) While I was in SG, went for mass at the Good Shepard Cathedral. Saw the most good looking guy.. i have ever come across but too bad... married leh with 2 kids.... but looks damn young. Probably filipino or indonesian...... damn nice eyessssssssssssss... eye lashes melentik leh.

6) My good friend in AU, gave birth to her first child - baby girl - Phoebe Michelle Lee... on May 27th... Congrats G!!!!!!!!!

I guess thats all the boring updates I have.

American Idol Season 5 Finale

American Idol Season 5 has come to an end.
I watched the finale only at the second half of the 2 hours finale show. What i managed catch showed all the 16 finalis singing.... Pretty good. To tell you the truth, this is the best season yet. Coz the contestants can really sing......

I still like Elliot the best - I guess being 3rd isn't that bad.

Taylor won... and when he sang his debut single.. it was actually quite good!!!!!!!!!!

:)

Of Shoes and More Shoes

As most of my readers know, I love shoes. I LOVEEEEEEE shoes.
But, I love shoes that has quality. U know what i mean. Vincci stuff once a while.. or hardly ever coz you know why, it gives me blisters.. and not very comfy.

What are the important criterias you look for when you are looking to buy a pair of shoes?
For me, the style or the first love strikes me first. The color the fashion. Then the ultimate test!!! the comfort. Would u actually buy a pair of shoes that looks absolutely gorgeous but absolutely uncomfortable? Well, the bottom line is would you suffer for fashion?

NONONO, is my answer to you. Imagine your feet have to support you, the whole whatever KGS man...... wearing uncomfortable shoes will kill you. Hence i don't wear those tiny skinny heels short of sandles or shoes. i like chunky heels or those wedges. But you have understand tho' buying those wedges u have to make sure you choose one that doesn't look ah lian or el cheapo. Not easy to shop for shoes ah.

There are alot of el cheapo shoe shops around. If they are comfortable , I don't mind. Firstly they are overpriced and not even leather. Sorry I just love the smeall of leather... i can't help it. hmmmm hmmmm.

I dont' know why they can't have good leather and affordable priced shoes here??? We have cows , we have buffalos!!!!! Why the americanos can sell the shoes like 39-60 USD - and they are leather!!!!!!! But if you look bonia , sembonia, carlo rino... fashion like shit!!! They need to change their designer man.... and cost a bom too. Can't comprehend it man.

My favourite shoe brands....
1) Nine west - ( absolutely affordable in the US, bought tons when i was studying there. now... cannot afford lah... RM300-500 leh)
2) URS - ( still ok, very comfy.... comfy like hell) but its cheaper in sg and more variety. When i go to SG must shop shop shop
3) Aldo!!!!! - ( cheaper in the US also, I only own one working pair of shoes :( too expensive here too) I just go to the shop and get my whif of leather.. hehehehehe....
4) Charles and Keith - Only available in SG. Not leather stuff lah. I think at par with vincci but their style and comfort is much much better than vincci lah.

AIIIIII my shoe dilemma................
I have this craving lately to buy some good leather shoes.. very susah to find affortable priced one here..... *sob* *Sob*

Yahoooo Elliot Yamin .....

Okie dokie, Elliot Yamin is still in, not voted out yet.. yipeeee.
final 3.....
Taylor, Katherine and Elliot.
It was abit of shocker that Chris got voted out. I thot it would have been Katherine or Taylor.

Lets hope Elliot makes it to the final 2. Don't mess up now... Elliot.....
Getting more and more exciting.

Updates

Thank You to those who have prayed for me. I am pleased to tell you all that I am getting better. Eventho' the cough is still there at least I am better. Still having sleepless nites but its mostly due to the immense stress at work and shit si tow.

The good thing about being sick for 3 weeks now is that i lost 2kg. hahahaha..
But I will probably gained it all back pretty soon.

also couple of days ago I had a conversation with one of my friends whom I have not spoken to for a long time on yahoo messenger.

Excerpt of the conversation
---------------------------
T3 : EH... how are you long time no see.
MG: Ehh how are you? I am ok but sick loh.... getting better tho'
T3: is it, besides being sick what else is new.
MG: nothing much loh.. same old stuff.. still single and all , not much updatae
T3: Still go to church
MG: yeah of course every sunday.
T3 : you katolik?
MG: Yeah I am catholic.
T3: Can change ah?
MG: HUH? change? Siow ah?
T3: No lah I mean change church like go visit another church
MG: Why lah.. I am catholic so I go catholic church lah.
T3: Ok then in that case I suggest you go get help from Marie France

( Ok mind you, T3 is a guy)

MG: What? Are you saying I am FAT?
T3: No lah, I am saying you need to put flesh on certain areas?
MG: huh? Slimming center wor!
T3: Like add flesh on certain parts of the body!!! you know lah
MG: AHHHHHHH liks silicon gah.

see guys brains? SOT SOT DEI!

Seriously ILL

Since my last post, my health has deteriorated.
I spend 2 nites without sleep and being showered in cold sweat. I seriously thot i was gonna die.

The cold sweat just came on prefusely without stopping and I was feeling so cold. Is this what it feels like when you're nearing death?

I went back to see the dr and he said its probably my weak body not being able to work with the medication he gave so that reaction is my body rejecting. And worse thing is i started to lau sai this morning.

He gave me a new set of medication and told me to take 2 days rest.

Shoots.. there goes my birthday....
But at least I am alive.. and its horrible when you're really really sick... MC is not fun either.

3 visits to the DR within a week

As per my previous post, I have been taken ill. Being ill is not good.
Yesterday I left work early as in around lunch, I informed my boss that I could no longer take it and I need to go and see the dr.
I decided to pay a visit to dr which I have been going to since childhood days. He did his examination and told me that this being already more than 5 days, I really have to take care as it can lead to bronkitis(spelling is probably off) and eventually asthma.

Having bronkitis is not fun. U can't sleep at nite coz you will just coughing. THe worse is morning and nite as it gets chilly during those hours.

Aii... i guess as i get older my immune system is getting worse. It can longer fight the bad elements as well anymore. Not Looking forward to turning a year older in 3 days time. :(

Taken ILL

I have to say, stress at work has been mounting up esp when i have to do 2 job roles. 1 is current role - which was suppose to be transition but the receiving party hasn't identified anyone and its been 2 months now. Learning the new job.. is a real task. Not knowing the technology is one thing but having a boss who is so concern about the stats.. is almost killing

This is a Tech support job lah. obviously there will be instances where the issue will last more than 1 month.... this person insist on closing it within the stipulated period. Tough life if you ask me...

So have been taken ill. As you might as well know, I am abit phobia when i get cold esp after the incident few years ago. The incident where the cold/fllu turned out to be sinus infection and I was out for about 10 days of MC. ahahaha. Paranoid.....

So this has beenn about 1 week now.. getting abit worried. Please please don't let this be worse... *sob* *sob*

American Idol

I just love this season of American Idol (season 5?) They have so many good singers. And each week its so disheartening to see such good singers leave. 2 Weeks ago, Mandisa left. she is one good singer

But i totally love Elliot. I appauld him coz he is almost deaf in one ear but he still sings on tune and very good. But I am abit concern coz he has been bottom 3 for the last 3 week. I hope that this week, he won't be voted out.

But i have to say, after following so many Seasons of American idol.. this is the best seasons.. as in the competition is stiff man...........

Holly Smolly

Holly smolly.....
Guess what, on sat there was this article in the newspaper with a guy seating there with 70 pairs of sneakers!!!!! 70 Pairs of SHOESSSSSS?? and its a GUY... yeah you read correctly - Its a GUY.

I don't even have 70 pair of shoes and I am WOMAN!!!!!!
Goodness gracious me.

I don't even have more than 20 pairs of shoes.... and thats including sneakers and sandles and mules.. and every darn.. variety of what we categorize as SHOES.

and in the article he said he has even spent above RM1000 for a pair of SNEAKERS...

MAMA MIA CARAMBA.

I just Had to Blog about this

As usual, weekend is here, usually we would go for the 7.30am Mass on Sunday but due to the fact that tomorrow I will have to follow my dad to pay respect to my grandfather's tomb. yeah its Ching Beng again. And yea, I do hold the joss stick but no with the intention to pray but just as part of th custom to show my respect.

anyways, thats not I wanted to blog about.
The sermon by the priest yesterday really stuck to my head and my bro's too. To not make the story too long, allow me to just give you the gist of the whole thing. Its about reconciliation. As you know, catholic are encouraged to go for confession/reconciliation. The priest is scholarstic one. But obviously I dont' remmeber much of what was said EXCEPT this.

Part of the sermon he started to mention certain behaviour that are not good behavoirs. He started by saying that we all have the impression that a certain is lazy (well we all know which is that rite?) and we begin to follow suit their attitude and having the thinking " WHY DO MORE WHEN YOU CAN DO LESS? hhahahahaa... and went on saying we all think since we are getting the same pay why do more when you can do less. hahahahaa... my bro and myself started giggling... Isn't that true. We all have this in our heads!!! Well its not that best of attitude huh.... This warrants us to go for confession. :P.

hehehhee.. hahahaa.. can't help it man.. the priest read our minds.
Anyways, just in case you guys didn't know, last week, NST posted something on racial survey.. .how each race is deemed by mass majority of people hehehehe.... It was a good article and the most truthful one I have came across.

If you haven't read it... ping me...

Persistence Pays Off

I have to tell you this story.... It involves frustration, anger and also sheer persistence and a guidance from the higher power.

I have been trying to call our National Power Company for weeks. As we all, how the public service sucks. Call call call.. you get thru, if you're luck to the 1st level. From the first level, you try to explain your problem to them. But before you could even finish, you're being cut-off with a curt answer that its a billing issue. Heck... my name is printed wrongly on the bill. Fine they pass you to the so called billing dept. ring ring ring ring ring ring for up to 15 min. (yeah i know, my handphone bill is gonna cost me a bom. Yeah and you might ask why don't you use the office phone coz i am only given a grace amount of $10 a month for personal, once you exceed that you have to pay the co) So I did that for 2 weeks in a row - trying at different hours.

Yesterday!!! EUREKA!!!! I decided that I do it first thing in the morning, if I could - I would have called at 5am in the morning hehehee.. just to get thru.

I called at 9.30am.. and yeah yeah yeah when passed to the billing dept within 2 rings, the phone call was picked up. But they told me that my name appeared correctly in their records. No typo no spelling mistake. HOW CAN!!!?!?!!?! I told her. It happened starting beginning of Jan. Last year was a ok. Well, the standard answer is, why don't you come in and bring in all the bills... STUPID DOPE..... anyways.. at least my persistence paid off , at least i got to talk to a "voice" eventho' how idiotic that voice turned out to be.

Now I am bracing myself for another gruelling wait at the center.

p/s went to their website... they don't even have a complain/feedback section. That shows, what monopoly does - creates inefficiency to the MAX!

bleeeep

BLEEEPPPPP
:(

What should I have majored in....according to....

Ok took the test and it seems IT ain't my field Your Scholastic Strength Is Evaluating

You are great at looking at many details and putting them all together. You are talented at detecting subtle trends, accuracy, and managing change. You should major in: Statistics Speech Conflict studies Communication Finance Medicine

What Should You Major In?

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

Okay I came across this blogthings website thru a blog which was bz-bodying checking out hehe. Anyways this is one of the first test i took. Imagine me with Green eyes. G, do you remember my chatting nick Violeteyes? hahahaa. Seems like Violet is not my color after all Your Eyes Should Be Green

Your eyes reflect: Striking attractiveness and danger What's hidden behind your eyes: A vivid inner world

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

all in moderation

If you have seen the news lately, be it local dailies or those international dailies, you would notice what graced the headlines.

Almost depressing. I don't know what going to happen man. Its like are we becoming less tolerant? I don't know.

I just want to say everything in moderation is good.
Every religion teaches good.
If you remember its states, if the person slaps you on one cheek, then offer him the other cheek.
What happened to that good old teaching?

One Of My Favourite Things

I love this pair of shoes. Hardly worn it as its kinda high for me to wear to work. I bought it around year 2002 in singapore.

But as you can see, as I found out lately after I opened the box..(yeah i brought back the original shoe box from sg hehehe..), its falling apart. But for this picture, I place the shoes on a Voir box not the original box hehehe.

Here's some pictures. But you can't really see the buckle side which is falling apart too but i plan to salvage it by glueing it later on.. ai ai ai... very sim tiah leh.. i love this pair of shoes.

The Constant Gardener

I just finished watching The Constant Gardener.
Well, now i know why it won some awards :P
The show is pretty meaningful and dramatic. In a sense you get to the poverity and corruption of govt that causes the people to suffer. And outstandings individuals trying to make changes. The small voice that brings hope to people.

Its a movie worth watching.
It is true, that if you believe in the cause which you're fighting for, you have more determination to see it thru.

But one thing tho' I don't get the link btwn the title and the substance in the show.. hmmm..

It came and It sorta went....

CNY came and its almost gone... at least its into the 4th day already.

I haven't been exactly productive. Even my younger bro said... I could achieve much more, if i weren't that lazy hahahaha.

4 days of being couch potatoe. The truth is, I just didn't feel like doing anything. Well 1st day I helped my mom with alot of the chores in the kitchen as the first day all our relatives would come over. After the 1st is over, my mom would go to some relatives house. Well for me, I just sat home glued myself to the tv or the pc (watching movies).

Darn it... why does time has to pass so fast when you're not at work!? DARN IT DARN IT..

I took some photos of the CNY dishes we had.. but am too lazy at this mo' to put it up. hehehe. will do it later on today.

Fruitful day?

Yesterday, I went to visit the dentist to remove my suture... HAHAHA... yeah whats that word hor? That was my first reaction. Then I go look look in dictionary hor, it means stitches lah... dongoi !!!!

Anyways, while waiting outside, I was agonizing on the fact on how painful its gonna be coz doubt the dr will be giving me that shot to numb the area.

Name got called, went in sat down, - waited waited waited. Then dr came. Okie, any problems (mind you this dr, like to do things chop chop and don't like to talk much or answer much questions. I hate dr's like that). Anyways, I said, yeah.. first two days my nose had blood clogs. And then now and then the area where the sinus lift was done, gets numb and feels tingly. hahaha. Then he said.. okie, let me remove the stitches and then we will take an xray. Alrighty!!!!!

Before the went snip snip snip , he said.. its actually healing very well coz the stitches is loose. Which means its healing very well.. then goes SNIP SNIP SNIP... tug tug... hmmm.. alittle taste of blood...

Ok done! Rinse... go seat outside... wait to take xray then come back in.. we to thru the xray.

ALrighty.. xray taken, called in to talk to me. Then he said.. SPOT on.. very very good. Then the sua ku me.. had to ask lah.. DR i got one question, after the crowning is place....is there any periodic maintenance (typical IT term hor). Then he said.. after 6 mths the crowning is fitted then you need to come back and see after 1 year. If everything is ok.. then no need follow up. WOOHOOO... ok can relax until July before the agony of visiting the dentist is revisited kekeke.

After that session, I decided to go jalan2 lah. Release the tension rite!!! So I went to the mall close by. Bought 2 ultramannnn... tshirt for my nephew whos birthday was that day. Then found a pair of sweat pants ... for 50% off... had to try it in the dark coz that stupid dressing room didn't have any sort of light... Premitive leh!!!!

Anyways, got home, then mom was making Top hatS!!!!! Okay its also called pie tee... She was making the shell lah. We always do. Mom has been making it for ages. Usually i help her.
So changed my clothes and then stood by the fire for 3+ hours!!!!! BOY!!! was my kneee sore..
Wanted to take photos but my hands were darn oily lah. Dun wanna damage my camera...
I don't grow money on trees!!! hehehee

Very Fruitful Day huh!?!?!?!

DUP DUP BI DO!

Of Junk Food

Recently, KFC introduced the Fish burger to their menu. Isn't it abit weird to have a food outlet which was known becoz of their chicken and not anything else.!?!?

Anyways, I decided to try it.. ERRRR.. the verdict is that...... Its OKAYYYYY.... JUST A OK tho'
The dill dressing or whatever you call it was so diluted!!!!! But you sure can taste some sort like mustard like or is that the dill taste hahaha. I have no clue.

Ok next was to try the prosperity burger at Mc D. The chicken one of course. I had a long long time ago, i think it was couple of year ago. I forgot how peppery it is... I don't think I will eat again tho' and I shall remember how it taste now.. hehee

Over and out...

Falling down the spiral stairs

As some close friends might already know, I went thru a turning point sometime end of last year. After the turning point, certain things in my life were clearer and for once in such a long time, I was feeling happy. No dark clouds were hanging over my head.

Unfortunately, I am beginning to feel sucked into the void of darkness and tumbling down the spiral stairs. For the past couple of weeks, I have been feeling that way in and out (not consistently). I try real hard to counter it. Fighting against the vacuum that is sucking. Its tough. When I go thru these certain moments, I try to stay positive by counting my blessings.

I really don't want to return to the state I was in previous. A state which I stayed in for the longest time and watch the years go by. I do not want to. But is my will strong enough to sustain this times of temptation where its easier to succumb rather than fight?

For now, my decision is to fight! Fight! the feeling away.

Chase the blues away!!!!

I will not fall into the darkness once more.

Hmm... I wonder

I don't know how many of you out there watches those korean dramas or jap dramas or tv shows. But of course I am talking about those with subtitles shown.

If you do watch those korean dramas (this is the most significant that i can remember). Have you noticed how they use the word khinzir to translate the word "pig" no longer do they use the word babi. Hehehe
Funnily, I don't remember ever using khinzir in school. Did any of you remember?

Also another word is berbaloi!!!
Aiyah i got A2 for BM leh for SPM but I heck sure didn't see all these words then.....

Wallace & Gromit

Yo.... this show is worth watching. Funnay and not long and draggy. Jokes are good... :)
And its cartoon.
Highly recommended
:)

Look Alike

Ok... Yesterday was New Year's so I went for mass as usual in the morning. Usual means 7.15am Mass ok!?!?!?!

Anyways, after mass, this couple in a merz , winded down the window and extended the hands and wished me happy new year. Then pass by the organist and then he said "hey.. happy new year"

So you're wondering whats so strange about this? Well, its becoz they thot I am my sister!?!?!?!
The young organist used to be my sister's student. The older couple, I have no clue who they were. But this is not the first time in church or outside people has mistaken me for my sister.

It started even as early as I was in Secondary school!!!! Having lunch in the town with friends, still in school uniform lah..(prefect mah so wear skirt and blouse lo) then someone came up to me and said.. eh IXXX so lcly ah... see us also never say hi!? I went huh? I am not IXXX lah... so why say hi!? hahahahaha

Usually I would say, Eh I am IXXX lah... I am the sister. But since its new year and all, I decided to just keep quiet and shake their extended hands.. kekekekeke

I then asked my niece and nephew (my bro's kids not my sis's), eh i look like khor2 meh? Both said.. yeah abit.. the hair lah Jee khor... Keep your hair long!

Aiiiii.....

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!!!!!!

The new year has begun!!! So make this a great beginning to an awesome new year!!?!?!?!?!

may this year bring you good health , wealth and happiness
if you're single, may you find the person to share your life with.
If you're married, may you have a blissful and blessed marriage
if you're waiting for your new born baby, may the birth of the child be a smooth and safe one!....

Happy new year! Forget the mistakes, look forward with the experiences gain...
And lastly, Never Forget to Put God in everything that u do.....

:)

Its the Eve again

Feels like deja vu every year during this time.
I am so over making those new year's resolution :P

Well I will not make a resolution but I will definitely make a list things that I would like to see happen in the near or so. If its not done, it will be brought forward :)

Time flies, each year I ponder back what have i achieve in the last 12 months.
I would say that this year has been much clamer than the year before.
But this year was also a passing but not in my family.
As I look back these are the things that are significant enough for me to remember

1) I finally went for a vacation after 5 years of non vacation - overseas.
2) I finally feel more settled with my life , making lots of important decision and learning not to regret. Moving forward no matter how tough it is.
3) Have come to a point in my life that I no longer give two hoots about what happens. If I die tomorrow, I welcome it.
4) My good friend since college here and then University in the US, mom passed away. Went for the memorial service. Still remember every event with her mom very clearly. She was only 56. Sucumb to cancer - lung - similar to my sis-in-law.
5) Learning to live more in God's grace and guidance. But haven't totally let go.. yet.
6) this year my age has two no 3 in it... suppose to be lucky hor.. but havn'et seen any luck .. hahahaa...
7) This year after almost 4 years with bonus, i finally saw some extra $$$ coming in but alas this will go towards my dental surgery next week. Talk about lucky....


Things I would like to achieve , just not in the next year but from next year on.

1) visit places - Italy, Bali, Japan, Spain, Greece ( not in any particular order)
2) try to find a way to work with my difficult boss
3) hopefully still have the patience with my idiotic team mates esp bonnie black.
4) start on my spanish class ... (hopefully will find a place) .... a fresher first.. since i have wasted my 1 sem of spanish which i learnt in UNI.
.
.
.
. and the list will be added as year goes by :)

Life goes on....
one thing I am not looking forward to is growing older by 1 year. DARN!

My Christmas Dedication to You .. Enjoy!!!!

Hey Friends,

Here's my Christmas carol dedication to you :)
Sung by yours truely... enjoy

ok you have to go to the url manually lah. coz i tried to link it but it errors off.
www.geocities.com/mystic_grey2002/i_saw_mommy1.wav
www.geocities.com/mystic_grey2002/haveyourselfamerrylilchristmas.wav

I miss not singing this year around town

Have a Blessed Christmas

Power!!!!!!

Recently, I was in the mood to give feedback.
After I came back from AU, I realized that the burger here in McD really got no quality lah. The Size has been shrinking every freaking day. So i decided to login to their website and give them a comment or two. I guess they were expecting everyone to tell their Great Experience with Mc D.

Coz they seem to post only nice stuff. Anyways, I wrote my comments and lets see whether i receive any reply or not. Being malaysian, I bet they won't reply nor do anything.

But I still believe in the power of FeedBack. what happened was, I have been living in this place for 1 year now. And I noticed paying maintenance fee is a waste of freaking money coz they dont really manage the place. Always will only move their arse once we bug them. all these stuff should have been done without us having to tell them.

Alrighty, here's the situation.
the floor number at the lift lobby on my floor has been missing for months... months i tell ya! and then just infront of the waste room, there is a huge damaged door sitting there for more than 6 months. And some lights at our floor corridor is out... So i got really pissed.

I wrote them a Feedback and place the form in the box infront of the office. It was this morning. And Guess what.. they fix 2 things out of the 3... POWER!!!!!!!

And for my suggestion, I put there they should be more efficient if they are taking the owners money or else its just a waste of our money.... all written properly without using any profanity or rude words HAHAHAA

Not bad hor!!!!! POWER POWER....

The Death of My Tungsten E

My Tungsten E is about 2 years old. It died on me couple of months ago. It refuses to start. Took it to the dr. and was firstly informed that its becoz the charger ws faulty since they manage to revive it for that period in time.

Bought a New charger , charged the TE but alas the next day the same problem again.
This time took it back to the DR with the charger and TE in hand. That sales person asked me to come back after 20 min and then told me that indeed the battery is dead.
Then i said, ahhh.. and u asked me to buy the charger yesterday... he had the gall to say, you can use in the office mah

Mah your head!!!! Already dead how to use at work.. dong goi.....

Anyways, i called palm and was told that to replace the battery would cost me US76 or i can replace the unit for a new one for USD125.

I found out there is a better version out called Tungsten E2. RM88X+ .........

Tak tau lah...
Gadget like that... seems to become obselete over nite.

The Machinist

Watch The Machinist today.
For once, there was no subtitle!!!!!! none in chinese nor malay!!!! Was awesome....... without the sub of course.

Anyways.. the show is abit profound. Not something that you can sit back and just enjoy. Requires abit of thinking and analyzing... :P

Quite ok tho but can be a bit draggy... its drama sort.

go watch it if you got time to spare.

MY most beautiful....

So they say - that they are looking for MY's Most Beautiful Woman!? Really?
Have you ever watched it on TV? Actually I didn't even know they had this reality show on. I knew that Dove was having this campaign on most beautiful woman. Not so much of the looks but also the inner beauty.

Ok, I my brains were working at its right speed and capacity, I believe I understood it to be regardless of how you look, what your age is, what your personality is, you can stand out as beautiful in your own way.

Eh Hem... after watching the show, I see is as a total embrassment to watch these ppl on TV!!!! National TV behaving like total bitches!!!!!

Yeah some ain't young either.

Anyways, There is this one lady a mother of 2, aged 39. Okok I am not that young either. But the way, she manipulates the whole situation and put words into people's mouth, spreading rumours to cause a scene was horrifying. But you'll be gla to know that She got kicked out last week!!! heehhee.

Worse of all even while one of the judges was still talking, she was also talking simulatenously. Teruknya ethics. But you'll be surprised she is of mix race coz she has the last name of Davies but she is actually clad in headscarf. Pretty - alright i guess. But with her personality as ugly as that, she didn't look anymore that beautiful.

Gosh, I believe there are many women out there who may not be as pretty outside but has a beautiful inner self and personality but why these lot was chosen.. only those casting people knew.

Just Like Heaven - The movie

Remember sometime ago, I wrote about this book I bought - Just Like Heaven.
If you don't remember, here's the link to it http://mystic_grey.blogspot.com/2005/08/just-like-heaven.html

Today, I went to watch the movie. Oh How disappointed I was!!!!! The story was totally off from the book. I preferred the book version much better. I mean even the characters in there were like different. In the book, there was no mentioned of a sister called abby.

Gosh.... eventho' the only thing in the movie is the view from the apt was awesome. I totally miss San Francisco. I wish I had an apt that overlook the bay and looked that awesome and a garden on the roof top :)

I guess it best to watch the movie first before actually reading the book - which is the best way to avoid disappointment.

ILL

Was glad to be back.
But now am sick.
down with flu... hopefully not bird flu.
Pain at the cheek due to the congestion at the sinus node/pad (whatever).
pain pulls till my eyes waters.

Need to rest.
can't write in long sentences.
hopefully pain doesn't cripple my brain hahahaha

ciao...

Almost the end

My trip in AU is almost coming to the end. I am back from Brisbane. 2 more days here and I will be heading home.

Its funny how when you're far from home, you keep thinking about home - your plans for home keeps coming up. Maybe its God's way of sending me here to put somethings into perspective.

Brisbane was kinda different from Syd. In Brisbane, they have this suburb call Sunnybank hill and alot of asians there hence you feel very not like in AU :) but the good part is the good food and also ability to get asian stuff - if you live there of course. My friend there works as a real estate agent. She is one smart lady huh.... almost every month she sells a property. She used to be in IT and after moving to Brisbane, she couldn't find a job for 1 year + hence the second year she was there, she actuallydecided to take up the license in real estate and go for it. Always the gungho one even when we were in University.

I have some pictures of Brisbane but shall put it up abit later..........

Today I will be going to the city again to... actually get some more things from St. Mary's Cathedral.

Home Coming is closer now... just days away.

A little bit here and there

Alrighty, since I am in the mood to post some pictures, here goes. Sorry peeps, i no post pictures with me in it ah...


Thats manly beach - went there on the first day. Manly beach can be assesed either by going there via a ferry or by car. My friend's husband drove there and mind you, the roads are abit bengkang bengkok :P. When we drove there , the scenic view was just awesome. You can see bay areas, clove... just awesome. There were people sunbathing at the beach. But we just took a walk and then sat down to enjoy the beautiful scenery. The breeze was very cooling, but without the breeze its abit hot. I had my first taste of oporto burger. (check out the website http://www.oporto.com.au)

Hyde Park - Very refreshing to find a park in the middle of the city. Alot of birds flying around so I had to becareful not to get poop on my head hehehe. Overall the greenery and the dash of fresh air was good.

Inside QVB - Host many expensive brands. I just walked about and took pictures.

Hyde Park again

Over Laid Back?

Hmm.. so you're in a country where people are mostly laid back (another word for lazy? is it?), what happens to you? DUH, you will also fall in tune with them HEHEHEHE

Last time I wrote was 2 days ago was it? Or was it yesterday? Its the hardly working that is making my brains acting poofy too?

Anyways, yesterday, we went to Birkenhead factory outlet!!!!! hehe. Really man... its different from what I expected. I have only been to those big huge Factory outlet in the USA and they are extremely worthwhile. Imagine me! A person who loves to shop... ended up with an empty hand :P Pretty darn discipline this trip I tell ya!!!!!!!

I really don't know what happened to me. I see alot of shoes blablabla.. clothes blablabla.. nothing really interest me to just bring out my wallet and buy something!? So different from when I was in Houston in Feb this year. I guess I am looking for something I really really like. Maybe I haven't laid my eyes on them yet? But just like the US, most of the shops here are the same at every mall. Its either portsman, susan, target, kmart, sportgirl... cue..... not cheap either if x3.

Wonder what happened to me!?!?!?!??!

I spoke to my friend who has now resided almost 5 years in AU. She was my ex colleague. I have tried to get hold of her but as usual we were playing phone tags. While I was at the mall getting my lunch. Yeah the mall near my friend's apt. Its like just 5 min walk away. My Ex-col called, lets call her V. V called and started with such an Aussie accent hehehe. Then after awhile she drifted into her malaysian accent. So I asked her.. you have been here over 4 years now.... how do you feel? Feels like home now? I was suprised with the answer I got. She said this... no its not home, its just where I work. She currently lives with her uncle in some suburb. She was living on her own for the last couple of years in a mostly asian suburb and rented a 1 bedroom aprt. Her mom came around most of the time from MY. But i guess after extending the visitor's visa once too often, she had to go home. Since then she moved out from her rented apt and moved to life with her uncle.

Hmmmm... see home is still good? home minus the hot weather would be excellent. But to have home in a hot weather vs cool weather minus family and friends - which would u choose? maybe a few years in the cool weathered country - earn the money$$$$ and then head home :P
If you're still not too old to get a job back home!

I will be meeting up with her on SAT... hence we will be talking abit more.

I head for brisbane tomorrow nite!!!!! only for 3.5 days tho'

I am actually looking back to coming home

Do you like my new look?

Hey guys,

you probably noticed a change in the outlook :P

I know i know, ringgit will probably say its too girly girly hahahaa.

My friend over here helped me with the art work really, the background, the gifs, etc.

Thank You G!!!!!

Tripping around

We went out to a place called Paddy's Market and Market City. Its somwhere near Hayward ( hope i got the spelling right, too lazy to go verify).

We took the train to Central station. Well, since its been awhile since my friend went to this area, we were trying to figure out how to get around, which train would be better blablaba. Well, this is my first time stopping at Central.

Turn out - the place is china town.

Walked to Paddy's Market, passed by this place called - YHA - mainly for backpackers but look damn canggih wor!!!!! Wonder how much per nite. See I am believer of staying at reasonaly priced or even cheap but safe hotels/hostels. As I believe, when you're travelling, you're not going to be enjoying the ambience of the expensive room, are you!?!?!? If yes, then why come all the way for a vacation!?

Once we have reached the place, we attacked the food court first. I decided on the thai cuisine.... Noddle with 2 dishes - medium size cost me AUD7.90. Eh expensive leh. The Chili Chicken that I took - to my surprised was not even spicy but sweet instead.... not that great but at least the chicken was succulent. The other dish I opted for was the Ginger Toufu. Not to bad that one. But some of the carrots has black black rotting spots on it. Aiyaya.. see everywhere you go, chinese/asians are always prone to cut on the quality to make money! Disappointing isn't it.

Then it was to the floor where they had this Factory outlets for named brands such as CUE, ESPIRIT, CK, etc. I managed to get 3 pairs of cargo pants for my brother which cost AUD20 each. Which is a real bargain leh.

So far I have been very discipline. Most of the things I bought were for people with exception of 2 tshirts since I brought alot of long sleeves and now the weather isn't eventhat cold no more. I can do laundry but I still need enough to recycle around :P

Purchases so far.
1) 6 boxes of PODs
2) 2 large packets of minties
3) 4 kids tshirt
4) 1 adult tshirt for my uncle
5) 1 rose petals rosary
6) 2 tshirt for myself.
7) fridge magnet souveniors for my colleges at work. 2 packs.

Hmm.. i am proud to say so far I have been quite discipline with my own shopping hehee.

i still have brisbane to explore.

Also, since thin heels and pointy front shoes are in fashion - i dont like these sort so which means its good, I won't be buying any. They have those platform - cork heels mules/shoes. So far haven't found one that I have truely fallen in love with.! hehehe.

Updates

I am already into the 5th day in Syd.
Yesterday I took my adventure trip down to the city again. This time the plan was to go to Darling Harbour and Sydney Opera House.

As usual, I left the Apt and took the train to the city. By now, I am already a pro at readin the notices at the train station(eh hem). One thing good is that it scrolls and shows all the station that each train is going to be stopping and also the platform number to board the train. Its very efficient and accurate. I love it.

I usualy stop at Town Hall station as its central and I can then decide to walk to which ever destination and come back here to board the train back as I always bought Return tickets. I find it funny to use the word "return" as when I was in the States, we always use the word "round trip". Sounds better tho' roundtrip and made more sense.

Anyways, I reached Town Hall station (mind you it has lots of exits, you might get loss, if you do just set your bearings right and start walking :P) I went to have breakfast-cum-lunch at Mc D. WOO WEEE.. i just loved the chicken sandwich so.... yummy and the bread is so soft!!!!!!

I then went to the information stall at George st. and asked for directions to Darling Harbour. The lady - an elder lady wasn't too friend. Anyways, i took the sydney map and walked down Bathrust Str as per her direction. All the way straight and I reached the sign that says DARLING HARBOUR... cool!!!!!

Walked around darling harbour. Walked across the bridge there(can't remeber the name, will look in the map again).. and then after finishing off with darling harbour around 2pm. I walked to the other end which is where Syd opera house was.

The weather was blinking hot!!!!!! and the walk to Syd Opera house was one long long long one. These were all done by looking at the map and observing the road names.

By the time I got back to the apt and a total of 5 hours walk. My face is now sun burnt and arms shows evidence of my short sleeves. Go figure, don't even get a tan in malaysia when walking in the city but get a tan here in AU. Ai yayaya

Today I didn't do much except going to Westfield mall near my friend's apt.
Bought PODS!!!!! 6 boxes until the lady at the check out counter said, u sure must like PODS :P
I din'd bother to answer besides just smiling of course. Its sometimes good to act blur or stupid hahahaha.

tomorrow, I am going to Paddy's market.

I do have some photos taken but I shall... put it up another day. Its almost 11pm here and I am dead tired....

p/s I do miss home! Its right when they say,your heart grows fonder with distance. I cant' call my mom everyday now can I!?!?!?!?

Shall update more tomorrow and also next week, I fly off to brisbane to see my uni friend who now resides in Brisbane with her husband.

ciao for now.
oyasumi....

Some Pics

1) Kinokyuniya.... :) at Pitt St - in the building called Galleries Victoria.
2) Queen Victoria Building - shopping mall at the bottom
3) The last picture is St. Mary's Cathedral.

My 3rd Day

Today is my 3rd day here in Sydney.
Time sure goes by fast. I arrived on 30th Oct 2005 and today is already nov 1st 2005.

Today I took the Train from Hornsby where my friend G and her husband G lives. Before the actual event. G's hubby, took the pain of explaining to me the train routes and the stops to get off depending on the places which I wish to visit. Even took me on an orientation to the train station the nite before to show me the sign boards and tickets stuff. I totally appreciated that effort. :P

Since today is All Saints day, I wanted to attend Mass. I have surfed the web and know that St. Mary's Cathedral is in the City itself. It would be a good opportunity to attend mass since I am heading out to the City anyway. I found a really interesting item there at the St. Mary's Shop - rosay made from Rose Petals which is from Fatima ( a religious place in Europe - i think its Italy but not sure :P)

The train ride on the cityrail too me 40 minutes from Hornsby to Town Hall. There were other stations which could have been a alternative to Town Hall which of course depends on where you want to get to. I choose to alight at Town Hall bcoz I felt that it was easier and more central since I was going to walk around the city.

Arrived at Town Hall station around 11.30am. Alighted the train. Blur like sotong. Then saw the sign that Said QVB Exit. Took that exit and ended up in another mall called Town Hall Square Mall. :P

Today as just a day where I explored what Sydney has to offer. Pretty much I went to just around the Retail district.

Tomorrow I shall go to Darling Harbour and Sydney Opera House

hoo hoo...

After 30 minutes delay and 8 hours flight, I have finally arrived in Sydney, AU.
This is my first time here in Sydney. Not my first time to AU tho'.
The last trip I came was to melb and it was courtesy of my previous co hehehe.

As usual, its just my luck that I never get to seat with some handsome young chap. Instead, I sat beside a woman who refuse to talk to me.... and an elderly man who kept on talking.

But i was interesting how.. i did most of the listening and he most of the talking. He revealed alot about himself and his children who are now residing in AU. Even their ages and the year they were born :P

In btwn the conversations I also found out that...he is a catholic too and he attends SFX. Well, he told me that i can find him anytime in SFX hehe.

Anyways... the nite is not young here huh.. its already almost 12am and back home its just 9pm.

Well... havn't planned much yet.. lets see how things goes tomorrow.

For the first time this month

Since the fasting month started it has been very difficult to get seats at restaurants or food court during dinner time.

Its almost scary seeing these people. You know why, coz they buy the food and seat down and stare at it until the time to break fast. Everyone clobbering for seats. So if you're not fasting, you would even feel bad trying to rush with them

Today I went to see my friend who is a doctor to get some medication for my rhinitis which seem to get worse. So there was a KFC around the corner. So i decided to eat the instead of trying to fight traffic and probably be starving in the car.

I walked it, that place was empty and its already 6.30pm.. when I left around 7pm.. it was still empty. Feels good for the first time this month I manage to get a seat to eat without having to elbow my way to a table :)

Time sure flies, in the next couple of days... fasting will be over and celebration is on.

Is this me?

"Narrow Door": The secular society conditions us to over-value the "easy way out" of things. Do we face challenges positively? How do we face the differences of views? Do we give in to comfort instead of maintaining the discipline needed for prayer? Enter the "narrow door" of the Lord to deepen your love for Him.

-- hmmmmmmmm.........
-- probably so ...........
-- a need to change ............
-- double hmmmmmmm

Compassion

Sometimes being a Christian is a real challenge.
Recently the uprising against Bonnie has increased tremendious

Yesterday it came to my realization I do pity him. One guy in my team, he is everyday bad mouthing this fella and his 1 to 1 with boss... keeping instigating that he not be confirmed and hopefully fired.

In the meeting yesterday 2 guys were trying to really make him look bad.. badgerring him. I felt pity for him. He was out on MC for 3 days coz he had his wisdom tooth removed. Everyone was making fun saying" does he even has wisdom tooth"

But yesterday, it strike me that instead of participating in this I shuld lift him up in prayers. Maybe he has some kind of issues that we don't know off.

Eventho' it is his fault that he has attitude problem, pure laziness, taichi master but yet... as a human being, I think i don't want to see him being fired. At least I would like to see him change.

I know alot of ppl in my team will disagree and probably deem me as not part of their big plan to sabo him.

I make a promise to myself that I will lift him up prayers that he would change for the better....

Sometimes, we have to love our enemies don't we?

I would like to think that I still have compassion in me for such person even.

Ai ai ai

Sometimes I can just lose my patience. Which is happening more often than not.

On the road, all those crazy drivers , driving as tho' they own the freakin road. The crazy jam during this Ramadhan period is killing. Every day the whole city is at a standstill traffic. CRAZY!!?!?!?!?!

Not only that restaurants as pack and also the supermarkets. Thats not the worse part
The worse part is how they navigate their way at the aisles. Like shit only. Inconsiderate!!!!! Just stop and park their cart wherever they want. Then dilly dallying like nobody business. BEH TAHAN!!!!!

Please have some sense lah.

Then after shopping you get to the car park, you see a shopping cart parked right at the rear of your car?!?!?! Hello!?!?!??! Have you heard of the shopping cart bay. are you feaking blind!

DAMN!!!!!

Too many Jinjang Joes in KLang these days. Infested!!!!!!!!!!!

..... DUT......

FREAKIN DEPRESSED

Good reflection

check out

http://www.wau.org/meditations/meditations.asp?month=9&day=19&year=2005

my fav part:

This story of Cyrus’ edict and the Jews’ response tells us that we must never give up hope—even if years pass and our prayers seem unanswered. By staying close to Jesus in prayer, we can keep cynicism and doubt at bay and become instead like those Jews who hoped against all hope and lived to see their dreams fulfilled. God will fulfill his promises, even if he uses unlikely people, unlikely events, or unlikely timing to do so.

“Father, I cannot understand your ways. Still, I marvel at your wisdom and love. Help me to trust in you when my prayers seem unanswered. Guard me from despair and open my eyes to see you at work all around me, surrounding me with your love.”

The Tailor and her Snide comments

Ok ok, I went to tailor. I usually just buy my stuff from the mass production stuff you know? Like G2000, etc. Well Topshop and all that is beyong my budget lah.
Anyways, since I have gained quite abit of weight after i actually stopped my gym about 1.5 years ago.

Aiyah this tailor huh, no tact one... See I went with my mom and sis. My mom is very petite type, and my sister she is slightly shorter than me.

The tailor hasn't seen me in awhile and she said.. WAAAA fat already. Esp you, your sister not so bad. Your face esp. DAMNATION!!!

ANyways, after she measureed she said.. oh not too bad lah.. only by 1/2 inch at certain area and 1 inch gain on certain area. But your face looks fat lah.. ENOUGH Aleady :P

Anyways, she told me, you got to diet next time before you come. Each time you come you gain... 1/2 in lah and if keep increasing, you will have problem. :((

She made me feel feakin depressed.

Just Finished Reading

Ok On Friday, I borrowed a book and its called Where the rainbow ends by Cecelia Ahern.

Guess what I finished it by 11.30pm Sat nite.. hahaha.... Well, i didn't sit at home the whole day, I went out to the tailor.... for a couple of hours.

I also just found out that Cecelia Ahern is the Irish Prime Minister's Daughter.. wow wowow. This is her second book. The first one was Called PS I LOVE YOU. It was quite good too.

Ok currently reading. Bindis and Brides by Nisha Minhas. Started this morn, and currently at page 95.

Received this in my email box today

This is the whole email...............

Hope the message would encourage all of us that God is watching and holding
us at all times.

Malachi 3:3 says: "He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver."


This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered what this
statement meant about the character and nature of God. One of the women
offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the
group at their next Bible Study.

That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch
him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest
beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver.

As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and
let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold
the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn
away all the impurities.

The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot then she thought
again about the verse that says: "He sits as a refiner and purifier of
silver."

She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front
of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined.

The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver,
but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the
fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be
destroyed.

The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, "How do
you know when the silver is fully refined?" He smiled at her and answered,
"Oh, that's easy - when I see my image in it."

If today you are feeling the heat of the fire, remember that God has His
eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.

Pass this on to everyone you know. Right now, this very moment, someone
needs to know that God is watching over them. And, whatever they're going
through, they'll be a better person in the end.

"Life is a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, But you can only spend
it once."

10 things You don't know about MG :P

Obviously, there are more than 10 things you don't know about me.

Lets start with 10 okay?

1)MG plays the piano. Has completed Grade 8 at the age of 16. (obviously hasnt touch the piano for eons :P)

2)MG also plays the organ.

3)MG took ballet lessons until she was 12 years old

4) MG was active in sports in school. MG played netball, badminton and was a sprinter running 100 and 4X 100 and 200M.

5) MG dislike the dark. Had a very haunting experience in her bedroom during her secondary days.

6) MG has fulfilled her dream of going white river rafting and white river kayaking but too bad its here in MY

7) MG wore braces previously

8) MG inherited the 2 dimples from her paternal grandmother :P But now seems to disappear even now... getting chubby eh..

9) MG comes from a family of 4 children. MG being the 3rd and the least pampered. The forgotten one. Ain't the elder, ain't the first boy, ain't the last child either.. :(

10)MG would like to go to Italy one day. Too visit the Vatican city.

aiyah got more ah.. but a promise is a promise.. 10 means 10 heeee.

Coincidence or Providence

Couple of things has happened and makes one wonder if its coincidence or providence.
Maybe you can ponder of this and see what you think!?

of course if you're a person of strong faith, you would probably skewed towards Providence.

Scenario 1
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sis-in-law funeral, me at church 9am to go read up on the reading for the funeral mass prior to the funeral mass. At the church hall at the same time, my friend Joanna registered her marriage to Thomas. I didn't know that. When I was leaving the church , the guy who drove me to church asked me , do you know that gal in a wedding dress waving at you? I of course in my state of daze didn't realize it. Couple of weeks later saw Joanna, she asked, was I at church on this day? I said yes, it was my sis-in-law funeral.

Scenario 2
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Sister-in-law's name is Sarah.
2 sundays ago, at mass, saw joanna with thomas and baby.
After mass, approach them, I asked Joanna, whats the baby's name. Joanna said Sarah. errr... my mind went... oh Gosh.
That was also her daughter's baptism day.


So tell me is this coincidence?

I think its too close for coincidence...

What do you think?

Aging Gracefully

Have you seen the latest pictures of Demi Moore? Of Nicole Kidman? of Kelly Preston? these people age very well don't they. Some look better in their 40s or late 30s much better than before!


Demi moore is 44... and she looks better now than before...

I wanna look like that when age. And be as graceful as ever :) hehee.

Natural Disaster or Wrath of God

First it was the Tsunami which we thought was one of the worse natural disasters of late. Then comes the Hurricane Kartina which devastated much of the gulf coast states. It was reported that the disaster struck area as bigger than the size of Great Britain.

Some say its the worse "Natural Disaster" to date. Could it be that it was more of God's wrath on human kind? Isn't it ironic that the country with the latest and expensive technology has been hit worse than the tsunami and that there were more ill prepared for this than the country hit by Tsunami? As it was quoted, even people in india/sri lanka did some sort of barricade to prevent the water from flooding in. But who are we to judge since we are not that first hand to experience it.

I feel it could be God's way of teaching the human kind to be more humble. Have you realized that over the years human race has become so arrogant that they think everything is in their own hands even to the extend of creation of the race? thru clonning ,etc.

I have never been to New Orleans :P it was one place I wanted to go but was unable to , during the time when I was in the US. Time was too short.. too many states to visit. If you will and have the time visit this web site...
http://www.lifesite.net/ldn/2005/sep/05090111.html

I read the herald today, its so sad to know that there is no longer religious tolerance in this country. The Herald is a weekly publication with regards to the catholic happenings around the world and local. today's herald tells of break-ins to church, theft and vandalism. Yeah this is in our very own country.

A church in Masai, Johor has been broken into, the tabernacle has been destroyed and the hosts thrown and scattered all over the floor. The altar was badly damaged. And another church st. theresa's has been broken into as well and vandalise and when report was made to the police, police has advice the church to play a private security guard around the church premises.

Think about it! Why does it have to come to this. Where is our tolerance for difference or religion. Gathered that its a church and not a mosque so everything is kept hush hush and things are swept under the carpet. Think of it, if it was otherwise what a public outrage it would have bcome and a big big big issue and probably appear at all the front pages of the local papers.

Whos in the wrong? Parents? Govt? all of us? human race?
Of our "don't give shit" attitude?

Maybe all these so-called natural disasters is a way to teach us a lesson. To wake us up from our arrogance.
Maybe its time, we stand together and pray not only for ourselves, our religion , our family but for all human race to go back to the basics of life. And realized that with all the knowledge we have, we are nothing if we cannot live in harmony, in tolerance and in a civilize matter.

Maybe we can all add this to our daily prayers everynite bfore we go to bed. Wouldn't you want to live in a world that is peaceful and filled with harmony?
don't wish lets at least start with ourselves with of course with God's grace.

Forgiving oneself

Is forgiving oneself a difficult task? I believe so. Sometimes we are more critical of ourselves and others.

I have been doing some soul searching. One question that I asked myself lately, was why do I feel sad and tears starts rolling down my face when I think of my late sis-in-law. Next week on the 8th of Sept 2005, will mark her one year of departure form us all.

I began to realize, could it be that i can't forgive myself that I am also hurting that she is now gone from my life? That I no longer have a chance to remedy the situation!?

She has never really been close to me. I believe I am feeling this way, becoz I never did have a sense of closure. I believe i didn't help her enough when she was alive and ill. Maybe during her times of need I was not there. And now when she's gone I feel guilty about it and unable to help her now. Would it had been better if I had actually said sorry to her or asked for forgiveness for the times I didn't see her cry for help?

Maybe its time I learn how to forgive myself?
Maybe its time I learn to love myself more?
Maybe its time I learn to open myself more to people's love?
Maybe its time, I ask God to forgive and Let Sarah knows that deep down inside we all miss her? Or could it be I can say that to her myself and she is able to hear me?
Its just a bunch of maybes. But it could be the remedy for me, no?

My Natural State

hmmm... so is being lazy my natural state.

My colleague made a comment lately. Well we were planning some exercise program rite.. but sheis those type who wants to go to the gym everyday in the week. And on top of that 2 times for yoga.

Me on the other hand plans only to go 3 times a week and yoga once a week. So she blatantly said, you're so lazy!

Yeah whatever , lets just say, I like to do things moderately. Not to get hurt... well at least I don't starve myself like her in her pursuit to be thin like a lidi. She is already so skinny.. and hunch alittle bit coz she so thin but yet everyday she talks about how she needs to lose weight.. siow or what!

people like that deserve to be placed and not allowed to leave the asylum :P

I want to lose weight too.. But my moto is NEVER EVER SUFFER FOR FASHION OR BEAUTY.

hehehe.. so whats my natural state? LAZY or Comfort.. hehehee

KEKEKEKE....

The Eve

The Eve of Independence Day is here. For the last couple of weeks, the media has been reporting alot on this. Reflecting back to the good old days. Getting the veterans who actually experienced the memorial moment to recount the experience.

Getting the young generation to share their views of what they hope the country is or will be. What they hope to see..

You start asking yourself questions. You have been living here long enough but has things really changed? I was lucky to spend 3 years in the US of A and I loved it there. No doubt being in the mid west there is such thing as racism but its very mild.

If you have read any of those articles in the papers, you would noticed that alot of people mentioned about Bangsa Malaysia. Have you ever asked yourself whether thats just merely 2 words everyone caught on or is it the reality here?

To me, I believe that what everyone hope it is. But it is not so, at all. How can you claim we are there, when you see so much distinction in how everything is divided? Everything is categorized? Its kinda sad.

One thing i hope for this 48th Independence day is that people will just not merely say these two words but make it reality. Recognize what the situation is right now and make a conscious effort to change or make a difference. Eliminate the need or desire to see difference as a bad thing but strive to make the difference invisible.

If one is to just preach that we are multi-cultural env and so proud of it. I can say that many countries are multi cultural these days... so what would make our country any different? The Tolerance?

Of course, I am just writing based on my feelings with no intention of insulting any party. I am writing to express how I feel being a citizen.. and my hope as a citizen of this place :)

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

I watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory today!!! Awesome... its a damn good one and I laughed all the way.

I enjoyed it to the max. I would definitely recommend it.

But as usual malaysian crowd dont' quite get some of the jokes... Dweebs....

But was good fun.

Go watch it if you can.

Finally.... but then.....

To perm or not to perm
To cut or not to cut
To color or not to color!?

That was the question that ran thru my mind for the last couple of weeks. Seriously I was trying to make a difficult decision while my fringe or banks as they would say it in the US was bugging the heck out of me coz it was just sticking into my eyes.

Then Today, I decided, its about time - its to do or die case. So I called the hair dresser. Yeah the one which i only pay RM13 for a hair cut. Asked her if there is alot of people there? She said nono good time to come. Asked her over the phone, what type of color do you have ah? She goes, LOTSSSSS come and choose.

Fine, i went there, I was looking for the shade of chestnut rite? In my hurry to find it, i actually couldn't find it. Then I found it.. WAAA WEE.. the color. I then told her... she went.. errr.. becoz the color of your hair is dark I would need to put a color lighter.. Dang it she put copper. And I have to say, I am not quite happy lah.... coz the top looks kinda reddish.... I not ang mo mah.........

Anyways.... next time will go with the convention shade.. Brown............probably a medium brown...

So now i got to live with it for awhile..... For RM65.. i guess it didn't really burn a whole in my pocket unlike my friend who paid RM300 for her color hehehee.
By the way RM65 inclusive of the trim ... :P

Progress....

Its interesting that just last week, I attended a talk on the environment in my office. The talk was basically conducted by CETDEM. Its a non-profit organization based here in the country.

It was interesting how he said eventho' we claim we have progressed but data and stats gathered basically showed that only 2 areas we have progressed in - poverty and the other is 'can't remember already'.Anyhow, transport and such hasn't progressed abit since the time we gain independence. I guess when he spoke about transport he was talking more in the context of public transportation.

As we all have experience, taking public transportation in this country is hillarious. Takes a huge amount of your time esp the waiting period. If you are one who hasn't had the oportunity to experience this, you must be the sort that is pampered like crap. The ones born with a silver spoon or one that is fortunte enough to have a car to drive around.

I travel by public transportation when i was in the local college doing my credit transfer program and when i came back from studying abroad, I travelled everywhere by public transportation. The biggest frustration comes from the waiting period and the uncertainty wehther the bus would come or not.. or wehther the train would break down ( the train or rather the commuter only came into existence after I graduated and came back.)

Always have to plan at least an hour buffer zone. Imagine huh? Bloodee waste of time huh.

I hope that govt will look into this area soon enough before more people leave the country and leave another brain drain - which in fact i think would never be healed.

Interestingly today, I heard in the training I am attending - an indonesian man said this...
I love my country but doesn't mean I love my govt but I still have to obey my govt. :)

Can we be like him looking at the beauty of the country independent of the govt? Takes a lot of conditioning?

I dont' know!

Just Like Heaven

Just Like Heaven is a book which is just read. Its written by a male author named Marc Levy. A frenchman.

I went to Kino one day after work last week and saw the book. But I didn't buy it then. As you know books are kinda expensive here in this country in comparison to other countries. So I had to think it over.

But I went home and just kept thinking about the book... So i decided to get it last tuesday.

Just like Heaven is a great read. Its funny, sad and very touching. I am surprised that this romance story written by a male is actually very enjoyable. The way the describes things and how he puts it into words. Thats awesome. I guess thats what makes a good writer.

I enjoy the book coz it describes the places so clearly that you feel you're in there yourself. Another thing is this book is based mostly around San Francisco - my fav place in the US of A.
Dreaming of falling in love and living in San Fran. Sounds crazy no? coz San Fran has a high population of gay :P All the good looking men will already be taken by men :(

By the way, this book has been made into a movie. I wonder tho' - it definitely must take a good script writer to transform all those beautiful phrases and words into movie.....

What to do, I am a sucker for romance :P
Which I am still yet to find one myself.....

Haze oh Haze

Haze oh Haze,
why don't you leave us be,
your presence is making me suffer
your presence will kill me eventually
from inability to breathe properly.

Haze is such a nuisance. I will go home this weekend.. to a place where the reading for the haze is at the 500+ level. Even with the current haze level in KL, my sensitive nose is already sufferring........

My throat feels horrible too....

Please Haze Leave us Be.

Weird Dream

Last Week I had the weirdest dream.

I dreamt myself being in a church. But funny thing is the pews were very close to the next pew and instead of the wood thing that you use to kneel down instead its like thos pedals you find on stationary bicycle?

thats not the weird part, I saw twins that looked exactly like my sis-in-law. I approached one of them and said.. ehhh you look like my sister in law and she actually said.. yeah sarah.

Whats the msg I wonder!? i haven't had visions about her since the 9th day mass we had for her.

As you know I lost my sis-in-law , sept 8th 2004. Funny she should appear in my dream. Wonder what the msg is....

and visions has been very rare these days with me. Esp with my state of low spirituality.

But I often think of her now and then.. esp when i look into the eyes of her children. We have never been close but I have tried to help her during her time of difficulty fighting the killer disease. For her 2 killer diseases.

I find it hard to talk about her.. It just bring tears to my eyes each time. I wonder if thats normal?

Harry Porter and the Half Blood Prince

I have Finally finished reading that book. This book took me longer than the other Harry Porter books. Why? Probably coz there were too many filler chapters.

Anyways.. the story is so-so. Since there is a major character chopped off in this chap, i wonder how the next book is going to be.

Anyhow I will still buy the next book tho, its gonna be the last one.

Just bought a book yesterday from kino. Hopefully its good.. :)

If the opportunity arises

These couple of weeks, I have been thinking lot. Well yeah I know this is my normal form anyways rite.. some of you might think :P

Seriously tho, if the opportunity ever arises for to go back to university to study. I would definitely go into the field of psychology. Why? That was my initial interest anyways but due to some reason i couldn't pursue it. Its a long story, and I think its high time for me to look forward and not keep hanging on and blaming that situation.

Why Psychology. well... after giving it alot of thought. I felt that its what I am interested in and futhermore, going into that field would give me a better footing if I decide to join those international organization. If i opt not to do that but instead go back into the corporate world, I am able to do that too.... so its huge new world for me.

But my unfortunate monetary state doesn't permit me to pursue this. As I do not and wouldn't have that kind of money to finance myself anytime soon. Age is also catching up.

Hence, I am looking for maybe some study grant, stipen or some sort to finance this. But alas, I do not know that many people out there.

Hence my readers, if you know of any leads.... do let me know.... drop me a line.. Give a hand to this poor soul here.....

I have never been more certain that this field is what I am interested in.

:)

Do you want to know who I am?

Who I am From an Artist impression of me.

This portrait was drawn while I was on vacation at Toronto in year 1995 , 1/2 a year before I graduated. Such a long time ago aye....

Well it was actually an asian street artist. A lady infact. I obviously took off my glasses when she drew this :P

so what do you think?

:)

Full House

No... Am not talking about the Bob Saget - Full House Sitcom.

There is this Korean series showing on TV these days. Full House is basically the house which is by the seaside.. home for this couple who married based on convenience not love.

The house is my ideal sorta house, if you remember me talking about it in one of my previous post. I talked about a house by the seaside

This house is by the seaside with a long stretch of seashore.... big house... glass surroundings.

But I guess this remains a dream !?

Down the Drain.

You know.. i had so many topics to write.. but alas.. when I actually got a chance to login . Everything just disappeared from my mind.

Its blank now....

Sigh.. i wonder why would people even bother to read my blog...

Just some boring crap... :(